I was reminded of an experience while speaking to a friend

I was meeting a person for business reasons out of state - we have been communicating via e-mails. we were supposed to meet at certain time and place...He called me from a phone which I thought was his to say that he was not going to make the meeting, and
was it ok to reschedule, to which I said ok. So after not hearing from him I started to send him text messages to this number for him to call me. I never get a call back.

One day I get a message from where I been sending the TM... "You keep writing me on my mobile and who are you ?? "

To make this shorter.. it turns out this number was a local paper stand where they offer mobile calls for money. The man who owns the newspaper stand didn't speak English he
ask a young man who was near the stand to ask me why I was sending the messages.
So after the explanation. The young man and I exchange e-mail address.

It turns out we became online friends he was a law student and was having a hard time in his studies and became depressed, between the pressures of studying, money,family and loneliness he was not all right.

I got a message one day from him and he sounded desperate and said he did not want to continued on living. It just so happened I was schedule to fly to that city where he was and I told him to meet me to which he agreed.

We met, he was a handsome young man, with very sad eyes and a tormented soul we spent a few hours walking and talking then went to dinner my presence did wonders and he felt uplifted and some how I had given him enough reasons for him to believe life was worth living .... before I left him I gave him a wrapped gift..

He stated to me that this was the first gift he had ever received and really didn't know what to say.. He opened it and as he did I said to him.

"If ever you feel you are at your end and feel so alone.. light this candle you will feel me and feel there are those who care about you and want you to be strong." He took the gift with a sense of happiness and thanked me more than I can express here. NO kisses

We kept in touch for a long time and every time he would say to me " I have not burned the candle" I am sure as of this day he has not burned the candle... we still communicate...he moved to another country to continued his studies...and is now engaged to be married.

Sometimes all we need are words from the heart to make us see clearly...

My sleep was restless, the kind of sleep punctuated with small periods of consciousness and rare moments of true deep slumber. The spaces in between filled with random thoughts and small snippets of nonsensical dreams. I rolled over and fluffed my pillow as I heard the front door close, my husband and children finally gone.

My breath seemed to come more evenly as I luxuriated in the knowledge that I was alone, free to sleep or wake at my leisure. The bed seemed warmer, pillow softer, the house a haven, and my bed a sanctuary, and for the moment my time was my own. I have been anticipating this all week. Why you ask, because I have a dream lover! One that only comes to me when I’m alone in my bed and asleep. (maybe is a ghost).

I slept soundly for a while as the dream began to weave its magic, slowly, gently gaining purpose. Moving in the shadows of consciousness it deftly came into full focus. As it spoke to me in soft whispers, I responded completely both body and mind. "Come with me" it beckoned, "Let me" it pleaded, demanded and then with a low pitched growl of satisfaction it took me as I willingly set my feet to follow the path laid out before me.

It was my dream lover who came to me in the dream, this man who had dominated my waking moments over the past few months. Awakening in me new desires, lately I had found myself stumbling around high on these wondrous new feelings he stirred inside me. He now had found his way inside, invading my sleeping mind with his endless treasures of forbidden pleasures.

I moaned softly in my sleep as he began the seduction. Slowly, with maddening deliberateness he laid his lips on my face, following the path of my jaw line, kissing, his tongue teasing, his beard tickling and scraping as he made his way to my ear. His breath warm on my neck sent shivers of pleasure coursing though my body, his hands moving lightly with familiar knowledge over my sleep warm skin.

I was not planning on blogging tonight but before loggin off
I read a fellow bloggers post (Cuddle )
in his post he talks about the season changing and it got
me thinking if I could be a season
Autumn would be my choice
And I would sing so freely
The wind would be my voice
I would be the smell of apples
Scenting the crisp, cool air
Children's laughter echoing
Throughout the spacious fields
The little puppy leaping
Joyfully at their heels
Heightened senses being filled
With nature's gifts that day
The sun that shines so brightly,
Filtering through leaves of red and gold
The lovely pulsating aura
Surrounding the trees of old
Stored within these old tree's
Deep inside their souls
Is the knowledge of their history
And the secrets that they hold
The smell of burning leaves
Smoke curling in the air
A sample of the season
When the days will be less fair
People feeling energized
From the crisp, cool, spicy air
Walking down the country lane
Admiring the colorful flare
And I would send forth music
As the wind became my voice
Then gently whisper to the trees
Thanking them for their art
And array of magnificent colors
That profoundly touches the heart
Saying farewell I am leaving
A gift that goes far beyond words,
And I will return next season
On the wings of the migrating birds.


Which one would you be?

Life is a tricky thing. It will kick you in the butt one day. And help you up the next. The trick is to "Fall down seven times get back up eight". That’s an old Chinese proverb. It just says the only mistake you can make is after failing not getting back up and trying again. You know what they say when life deals you a lemon make lemonade. Just make the best of what you have been given cause wishing for more will only lead you into jealousy and anger. Both of which are bad. So life isn't all bad but it isn't all good either.
Life can be trouble but not all the time. After rain comes the good part. I mean you don't really expect life to be all honky dory do you? If you do all you are doing is being set up for disappointment because shit happens. Your best friend may turn and stab you in the back. But in the process of losing a friend you just may meet a new one. So do not shut the door to good in a bad situation. Than no one wins. Especially not you.

In life there are winners and losers, bosses and those under them. Don't worry for every dog has his day. In the race of life, there are winners. Not any losers. If you have survived in this world that makes you a winner. You must stare life in the face and embrace it. Take what comes to you. Don’t be mad when it isn’t what you wanted. Just be careful what you wish for, when you get you just may wish you were still wishing for it. You maybe surprised at what you get.

All I am trying to say is life is complicated. Don’t try to understand it, for you will just get even more confused. Love may come and go, but as long as it comes, you have nothing to worry about. Despite what people may tell you. Life will always be worth living. Life is such a tricky thing: isn’t it?

Whether you wander down random roads or plan precise paths, the exciting journey we call life involves many choices. The decisions we make on a day-to-day basis affect everything. Questions such as, “What should I wear today?” or “Should I really be eating this?” are asked by many people everyday. Frankly those two questions are on my mind every single morning...most of the time a simple beauty magazine answers both questions in one article, but I know that in order to live a happy, healthy life there are more important questions to be resolved.

Hope you are all well...

Well it has been a while since I've posted anything
and since today is a very slow day at work I figured
I'd post something. It is almost the end of the week
(a very busy week) and believe it or not my calendar
is free of meetings, must be because I crammed everything
into three days. Anyway last night I was in the chatroom,
(I enjoy being there) I have gotten to know some of you
and must say some of you are just too funny, and sometimes
the conversations get a little red hot, but never out of
control and we all eventually cool it down (which is a good
thing) I would not want to get kicked out. - A little
about my life...life has been good to me, I must say that
between husband, kids, work it all has worked out for me
- hubby, is a wonderful man, caring, loving father, friend
and (sometimes) a great lover ... after being married
for so long sometimes the sparks don't fly as high, but
we make do...and are working to rekindle the flickering
flame, I think we are making progress. (However he always
makes me smile) and we do lots of things together, like
going to Broadway to see a play, bike riding, baseball
games (love theYankees, Go Yankees) sorry could not resist.
I do enjoy sitting in my living room with him and have a corona
or my cup of tea and watch the boys of summer do their thing.
My old time favorite Yankee was Paul O'Neil, he's retired
but damn I had such a crush on him - mmmmmmmmm... that butt...
ok I'll stop. Well I do have to find something to do, maybe
set up a lunch date, yeah that sounds good, I think I'll go
for some Sushi yummy.

I read these quotes ....I thought they were great and I
wanted to share them.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile because
it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance
that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in
return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but
if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes
only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to
like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes
a lifetime to forget someone.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we
lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what
we've been missing until it arrives.